I'm 48 year old male, and I've had problems with depression all my adult life. Usually I have been able to function by getting a cardio work-out every day.

About 15 years ago, I took antidepressants (wellbutrin, zoloft, and something else) for several months, but I felt absolutely wretched. The cardio work-outs no longer made me feel better. Food tasted awful. I gained weight. I had sexual side effects. In short, I was miserable.

About 6 years ago, I tried lexapro, but I only took it a few weeks.

I need to start therapy, but I'm sure the therapist will recommend antidepressants. To be honest, I get feeling of panic when I think about taking antidepressants (almost like if I had to go sky diving).

Does anybody else feel that way about antidepressants? It's almost irrational. (BTW I don't think I will agree to take antidepressants. It's hard to explain.)