both of us are really stubborn & I've never been one to share stuff. even writing in here is big for me. lol but he said he appreciates me writing & letting me in. & yes I def wanna be with him & I missed him like crazy. I didn't wanna say anything first because I didn't want things to be kind of weird if mentioned. I just gave it time. we actually talked about marriage too. he wants to do that. both of us are actually in love for the first time, so that's why my mind could be running too. and thank you guys for responding to this