You're acting inwardly whilst others in your situation may act outwardly, which does not make your problem any less valid. It may appear to diminish your symptoms to some, if they don't know what you're really thinking or feeling.

Personally, I'd it were me, I'd be looking for a T that believes and understands my situation and can provide me with coping skills to healthily address my emotions.

Be well and know that with proper guidence things can change.