>>It's complicated. My whole, um, "morning routine" depends on smoking. I look forward to smoking. I don't want to quit. I have to quit. <<

I understand, but who is in charge of your life...you or the vegetable? You are smarter and stronger than any vegetable. It's like pounding your head against a brick wall. To stop the damage just away from it. Don't do it any more.

Test yourself. Throw away your stash and don't buy anymore. Start your morning routine without the cigarettes. Don't use crutches, like tapering off, gum, patches or those ridiculous vapor things. Stand on your own two feet, look in the mirror and say "I'm DONE".

You can do it if you want to. It's all in your head.

Good luck and let us know how you do :-)