Thank u so much for that waggiedog! That made me feel really good! Yes it was tough in the beginning but as time wears on I become less and less inclined to use any substances other than my prescribed medication. As long as I take care of my physical and mental healtg I finally feel great every day just as I am! Being comfortable in my own skin is a brand new experience for me..one that I like very very much! I plan to be around this area of the sight in particular because I can share my experience and hope but also because there is always something to learn from every person fighting this disease. Thank you again and I'll be seeing u around!