i tried ssri before, it made my attacks only worse, had attacks like today for hours, everyday.. and my thoughts about being possessed and suicidal feelings started after meds & group therapy.. so I wish to cure without meds, I don't believe in the, i don't want to be addicted to them.. i used to use only herb tea and meds which had valerian, and it used to work before... today my attack was so heavy that i took one spoon of hydroxizine, my psychiatrist told me i could take this everyday, but i'm afraid if i would, my body would get used to it and it would stop working.. i'm listening to Blissful Deep Relaxation on yt, it probably helped a bit now..
no, my doctor doesn't want to give me referrals <even when other said to me wtf she should to>, so I don't know if something is wrong with my body, or if i'm overreacting.. i know only that i have diagnosed depression, anxiety, panic attacks, ocd, heavy anemia, psoriasis, high cholesterol even if i'm very underweight, and probably underactive thyroid... I know I sound like paranoid ._. my father scared me since i was a kid with talking about many illness, he still does and even says to me sometimes 'you'll die' etc... so I got very sensitive about health...
I lay down for like 10 min and felt bit better, now heavy and weak again, have problems with breathing eh ._.