I actually have been so upset that I ended up doing 3 anger guided meditations.... It was very interesting, accepting my anger and trying to discover why has surprised. For some reason I keep my anger in my back after doing a body scan as part of the meditations.
What I am discovering, is it is not abandonment that is causing the anger, when I really just let it be and look beneath it, it seems to be fear and betrayal.

I am going to try more of a forgiveness and understanding meditation tonight.

I even pulled some CBT work sheets off (I figure if I end up being alone on this journey with no T, that there are great CBT self help courses out there that I can use).

So after meditation tonight, I will work on some CBT exercises on anger and then maybe one on communication and conflict so if I go back to my T this Friday, I can be better able to truly communicate how I feel.... It will be interesting to see where the next few days lead me....