I hope you are able to get some sleep- sleep always helps.

I can relate to so much of what you have written. I had to let go and float these past few days. I had been up and down and up and down and Saturday had to call my family to pick me up on the interstate bc I was going to drive into a pole.

I have almost completely unraveled and am now trying to put myself back together. I am 38 and it seems to be getting worse.

Are you able at all to take a leave of absence from work? As to what to cling to when the walls are smooth...that's a toughie. I guess the hope that it won't always be this way.

No one in real life knows how this feels and I feel very alone in my pain. Thank you for writing this thread- made me feel less alone.