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Originally Posted by Frankbtl
Hi HelloWorld, really glad the call went so well for you 
And as for the "gay tendencies".........well I'd say it was way over time for more people to be breaking down some of those "stereotypes" anyway 
It's so much more important to be yourself..........to do/be whatever feels/is right for you. And try not to fear what other people may think you are/are not if you do something that's "perceived" as...........that just makes them wrong and it's them who need to "open their minds" a bit more. And you can be the guy to try to help them do that 
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My mom helped me a lot at that time. I just don't know about the scars though, like right now, I find them to be itchy.
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Originally Posted by shezbut
(((((HelloWorld)))))
I am so sorry that your father (and his wife?) treated you so inhumanely! You are a person. You are their son. I just cannot comprehend what in the world they could possibly say, somehow thinking that their actions were reasonable.
Very gentle hugs to you ~ best wishes!  |
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Originally Posted by Rohag
By itself that explains quite a bit. That physiological trait affects people's perceptions of you, which shape their behaviour toward you, which affects your self-esteem.  |
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Originally Posted by zinco14532323
What in the world were they possibly trying to find or prove???? To prove you were gay or something? I can understand how you feel invaded. We all have a right to some semblance of privacy. Even if you were gay it is not crime. Doing things that may seem gay is not crime. You are who you are.
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They weren't trying to find or prove anything about me being gay, at least I don't think they were. It all started because my room was extremely messy, so I guess to prove a point they dumped all my bathroom trash on my bed, through all the chips I had securely in a bag all over my room, and made my room an even bigger mess. I'm still finding chips from when that day happened. I do things that are gay, but I'm not. Like, Im sure if i saw another person doing what I do id think "They're gay" but when I do them, I don't think that its gay at all. Its like i have a biased vision, if I see it in someone else, its gay, if I do it, I don't think its gay.
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I'm a very private person. I don't talk about having a girlfriend because I just find it awkward. I think this isn't an issue of me 'being gay' (I'm not gay), but rather an issue of me having a hard time growing up. I've always tried my best to appear young and childish. When I started getting body hair, I didn't embrace it like others seemed to, instead, i was ashamed and embarrassed of it, therefore, I shaved my whole body every other day. I even stopped wearing shorts because of it. I still don't wear shorts. Well, I do wear shorts, but not in front of my parents. It's really weird to say, but when I first began wearing shorts in public, it was a sexual type thrill. I have no idea why (perhaps I made wearing shorts something of a 'no-no', like many of the polygamists and some mormon communities? idk). I'm 19 yrs old. And since 4th grade my parents have never seen me wear shorts, except for a few, rare, times. But during those times, I had shaven my legs. Even my own arm hair I struggle with on a daily basis. For years I would shave my arms. Its like the whole idea of adulthood has terrified me (like, looking like an adult and having adult features). Puberty was drastically delayed for me due to medical illnesses, so now, I'm actually having to shave my face. And for the life of me, I will NEVER let my parents see my face unshaven, because it shows adulthood. I'm fine letting other people see, ESPECIALLY strangers, but the idea of letting my parents see terrifies me. I don't ever talk about girls or dating with my parents . Never, ever. But to their amazement I have actually had a 'girlfriend' (they didn't know), but I really wouldn't consider it a real relationship because we only hugged and spent time together.
In general, I'm really not sexually natured at all. Like I don't day dream about girls or anything. I do find them attractive, but other than that, i'm not at all' sexually charged' like my guys my age are. i don't talk about them all the time (actually, i don't talk about them much ever with other people; I've never talked about girls with my parents, or even guys, so i have no idea why they would think I'm gay if i don't ever talk about either sexes, if anything, id think my parents thought I was asexual, which is something I've actually wondered myself).
The reason why they found so much lube, is because I was actually trying to make it pleasureable (I'm not going into detail). For me, its not pleasureable. sorry if tmi