Perhaps seeing a counselor to discuss these things would be helpful to you, HelloWorld. I see that you are on meds, are you already seeing a T? If so, have they helped you put any of these things into better perspective for you to understand? I'm curious if you are merely venting, and not necessarily looking for feedback.

As you have probably noticed during your membership here, many PC members are very helpful and kind...always wanting to help others. I'm kind of like that, just don't know how helpful I am.

Best wishes to you! Take care.