So, I have my issues. I get really bad ptsd attacks and bipolar.

Anyways, I found from my last episode how I can tell that I am having an episode coming on it's way.

It is, I lose appetite. If I am hungry, I have no appetite to eat, I can go days without eating until my shorts start to fall off. That is how I know the big tidal wave is on it's way (Also insomnia, difficulty to sleep.... it's 4:00am right now)

However, I don't know what triggers it. Can an abundance of specific colors target it? The other day when my thing clicked, I was in target, so there was a lot of bright red everywhere, there were a ton of people, I was way over stimulated by the masses...

There were a ton of attractive girls, could that be a trigger? I don't know if that's it because, right now, in my disease, also my recovering from alcoholism, I am in no interest of girls, Im interested in myself...

I don't know what it could be.

The time I was in Target before that my brain felt like it was melting like it does when I am having an episode...

Does this store, trigger me? Something about it...
It might be the people?

I live up in the mountains in a rural area. I don't like being in the city or around people. I need to identify my trigger but it's hard to put my finger on it.

Any ideas?

Suggestions?

This last episode was pretty bad. All of my episodes this year were bad, worst I had in my life were all this year so I want to identify these triggers before I progress through next year.