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sorry for typing in red but i feel i can help.
i have drank for 14 years. i quit last November. I had to be at my parents house when I did it. I was shaking, having DT's, sweating, I wanted to just keep drinking and just live with drinking rather than get through it.
I couldn't hang and that's what I did. It only lasted a month.
My family dropped me off with a relative who lives in the middle of nowhere, surely I wouldnt drink. WRONG.
I walked, hiked, mountain roads to get it.
Woke up in strange places...
My family then dropped me off in a rehab where I kicked and detoxed.
I kinda eased my way off through all of that hiking... I couldn't drink like I wanted to as I had to do all of that walking and stuff. I did however drink to throwing up everytime and while throwing up I was still swigging back that bottle of Jack.
I got to rehab, it took about a week there, a week in the woods where I was forced to drink less and less... So it took about two weeks until I thought I was normal.
psychologically I was still confused though.
so, two weeks...
It's been almost a year now, and even though I feel better than I did last year, I still feel myself recovering. I need to get in new habits, get back into a healthy eating schedule, etc. But I'm not having DT's or anything.
I ended up running away from rehab to be with my then girlfriend who was an everyday drinker, thinking it was a healthy relationship for me... Thats how sick this disease is. It was not healthy. Although I didn't relapse, she did, on meth.
We aren't together. I say this because I encourage you to stay away from old friends and old habits, get to know yourself, spend time with yourself. Relax, don't do anything. Just talk to people on this website, and find people who don't want you to drink.
I don't know how much a liter is a day because the hard liquor comes in ML's but I was drinker 750 ml's a day of Tequila, often mixing with the three pack of tall cans of coors lights and a few long islands.message me if you need help.
to ease the pain I found everybody has a food that helps. for my sister is was pizza. for me it was the greasiest nastiest cheeseburger i could get. fattier and greasier the better. see if you can get a comfort food for you that will block that crap out, induce a food coma with little ingestion as possible.
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