This has got to be at least the third time this has happened now, where he has told me a relationship would not work, but has proceeded to treat me like he would treat a gf or a sister by wanting to hug or look after me, so much so that I thought he was still trying to win me back before he told me we were incompatible. I think we're incompatible too, and I thought I was prepared myself to end it for good again. But, like usual, the nostalgia and over-emotional sadness washes over me and I keep wishing like hell that we could have worked out. Like, in another dimension we could have been perfect together. He sounds so stoic and detached now that it saddened me so much, and I could almost have promised him things would work out better if he just gave it another chance.. But if I told him that, it would have been a lie. I can't change that much and neither can he.

He also wants me to date his best friend, because if I did, I would not date a random person he doesn't know, but rather someone he trusts and cares about, and he wants us both to be happy. Yet he still seems to care about me more than I would expect just a friend to. I'm not sure what he is hoping for or whether I should be immensely confused.. but he was always okay with just being friends with me and it always hurt me to feel this, and it still sort of does. I'm just sad again. I honestly feel like I'll never get over him and yet.. I have to. I want to find someone who's compatible once and for all and never have to feel this sad, forbidden longing and heartbreak again. Even though I'm not feeling as bad this time, this must be the last time, and I will do my best to push on and not give in again, so that we can both move on with our lives. I just need someone else to make me forget the lingering attachments I have to him.