NotGood:

I don't know how it is there in terms of getting an appointment with the psychiatrist, but it took quite a while for me to get my appointment. If it is a long wait, go ahead make the appointment then go to your primary care physician and explain that you have an appointment with a pdoc at such and such a date. And ask the primary care physician to put you on something until you can see the psychiatrist.

Hopefully your therapist can get you to a place where you don't feel the need to be hospitalized. But if you get in that way, just call 911 and have them take you so you can stay safe while meds are prescribed and you can get in a better mental place. Then you can really maybe work on what's bothering you with your T.