Thanks, everybody. Sorry to be slow to respond. My depression has ups and downs, and yesterday was a down. Today seems to be an up.

Most friends and family seem to think that depression is 100% treatable with antidepressants. It makes me feel like I'm unnecessarily punishing myself and everybody who depends on me by being unwilling to try antidepressants again.

For me the worst thing about antidepressants was losing the ability to feel good from cardio exercise. Exercise is the only thing that keeps me going, so giving that up to experiment for months trying various antidepressants is terrifying.

So I think I will try the therapy and keep exercising as long as my body will cooperate (my knees are fragile). I'm glad others understand how I feel. Thanks.