((CalmingOcean)),

I think that your choice of that name CalmingOcean is great, that is your wise mind name taking shape too. PTSD brings on some confusing cycles that come in waves, but, these waves always receed. I think that it is good for you to remember that and keep ever present the "CalmingOcean" you are developing to help yourself remember and develop a gradual inner "CalmingOcean" in spite of whatever life storms happen to present.