First off, yes, I know, I'm a real trip, certain people here find my statements about MI issues offensive, albeit I think they know it's not intentional. I'm sorry for that. I really do think the world of the members of this community, they have helped me so much.

Second, now the groveling part -- I need help. I am destroying what could be a pretty good life post-breakdown by obsessing over said breakdown, over stigma, of MI issues, over my feelings about it.
I would like to ask for help stopping that. I've really hit the wall, so to speak, I am destroying myself over this. I have had some very deep, serious discussions with a couple of trusted friends, with my T, with a family member. None of them really "get it" - my concerns seem strange to them, irrational, not valid. So, I know that all of them can't be wrong. I know I'm wrong.

I don't know if it's appropriate to ask for this, but I would love a couple of members to sort of coach/mentor/support me in positive thinking, radical acceptance, getting myself back on track physically and mentally, and just generally in "letting go" of all of the false beliefs. Could be through an ongoing thread on the appropriate forum, could be PM's. If anyone would be willing, i would be so grateful, and in return I would offer to do whatever I could for them, or pay it forward to another member.

Thank you,

Motown