Husband and I have only been married a little less than a year. I used to enjoy my job, then things got really tense in my department due to upper leadership not playing nice with my manager. I transferred to another department (and location, big organization) and received a hefty pay increase. I thought that this new department would be the key to my unhappiness, but it seems especially over the last year, that I've been more and more interested in being a homemaker.

We don't have kids yet, so I can't even use the excuse of "wanting to be home with baby" - I just really don't like working. I hate having to be somewhere at a specific time, doing mindless work. I sit in a cubicle, stare out the window, or sometimes surf the internet (like now) and wonder, "am I wasting my life?"

I had a few days off recently (weekend, plus Monday and Tuesday) and realized that I loved having that time at home. I got some much needed cleaning finished, did a meal plan, started some laundry, watched a few episodes of my favorite TV show on netflix, even had the energy to cook dinner last night in addition to giving husband a ride to and from work (he had a flat tire).

I know it doesn't seem very interesting, but the past two days not being at work were marvelous. I felt like I could pursue any interest I had at the moment, without having to deal with someone asking me to do something or giving me a task that I just don't want to do.

I fear that this will only get stronger the closer we get to having kids. Now the real kicker is that every time I bring up this subject to my husband, he immediately gets anxious about it "we can't afford that, you'll get bored" etc. and basically refuses to let me quit my job. I guess it really doesn't help that he makes about $10,000 less than I do and that he absolutely hates his job and feels like he can't get anything better. PLUS, we have quite a bit of debt from various things (mostly student loans and car payment, plus a few credit cards).

I know it's probably not the wisest path financially, but I just really, really want to quit working. Am I being selfish?