So there's a definite pattern going on here. Seems like every time my dad gets a pint of whiskey in him, he becomes this mean, self-centered person who expects everyone to give him what he wants, and to act in only the way he wants them to act. He's never been this way with me...in person. But last night he treated Mom like **** (again), made her cry, etc.

What happened was, (and this is what Mom told me herself today), he started acting all lovey-dovey toward her, sat with her and all that. Well, Mom's not stupid - she knows from past experience that when he's drunk and acts like that, he's usually doing it to try to get her to go have sex with him. And she didn't want to last night. So while he was being all cuddly with her and ****, she brought it up and said, "I hope you know this doesn't mean we're going to have sex tonight." Didn't say it in a nasty tone or anything, just pointed it out to him matter-of-factly. But oh, he didn't like that. He shot right up and barked, "Well, I'll just get away from you, then!", stormed out into the kitchen.
So Mom had followed him to see what the hell his problem was. She confronted him. He then got angry with her, told her that he wanted to end the relationship, that he loved and cared about her but wanted "to be free". They fought for at least an hour, because I heard them fighting, only I couldn't hear what all they were saying.

Apparently, according to Mom, at some point in the fight he brought me up...saying how I need to see about getting a job and moving out, since I am now 18. (Keep in mind, that's coming from a man who lived with his mom until he was THIRTY, and didn't even get his driver's license until my mom was pregnant with me.) So now it seems like he's not only eager to be free of Mom, but me as well. I can't help feeling slightly hurt.

I don't know if I can stand living this way for much longer. Neither does Mom. Now that her SSI is almost gone, now that she's handed out almost all of her money to him (and others), it's like he now wants absolutely nothing to do with us. You know what that tells me.

According to Mom, he was apologetic again this morning, which is part of the usual pattern. He said while sober that he doesn't really want to break up, he was only drunk (his usual excuse these days), blah, blah.

Now he is gone and walking to the liquor store. I can't help feeling all this trepidation, as no doubt tonight will only be more of the same. I really don't know if I can handle much more of this.