thanks muches supernaught!!
today marked my 7-days since I last touched liquor. Most of that was spent feeling really sick and unwell (you know the drill). I'm physically a bit shaky still, and I feel a kind of minor dizziness and what I call a 'foggy head'.

still waiting for my admission date to the rehab hospital.

i appreciate hearing your story. always feels better when someone says something and you can say to yourself "hey! I did that too!" or "I felt like that and made dumb choices just like that!" - I agree - how sick is this sickness huh? Some of the decisions I made while drinking were just plain ridiculous - but that alcohol seems to put everything into focus doesn't it? (sarcasm obviously intended)

I've been trying to distract myself however possible, within my energy-range. Been keeping a blog as my detox and rehab and recovery happen. who knows, when we share like this over the internet, someone could stumble upon a single sentence or whatever, and it can push them into getting help.

food and I don't have a very good relationship for as long as I was drinking I could barely eat anything and lived off Boost shakes. Am able to get some decent healthy food in now, but I know this is gonna take a whole long time. BTW: 750ml bottles are what I drank every single day, of brandy. i'd sometime crack into a second bottle.

thanks again so much supernaught. I'm amazed and happy for you that you got things done! My morning 'mantra' is just telling myself in the mirror after brushing my teeth "no going back".

best wishes from canada!!