Medications can make you sleepy & make you feel like you just have no energy to accomplish anything. Sometimes med's can be a double-edged sword. On the one hand, you need them for your anxiety & panic attacks. But, on the other hand, the same med's that help with your anxiety & panic attacks, may leave you feeling as though you're just drained.

I do think it's important to reach out to someone. It sounds like there's really no one you feel comfortable doing this with at the moment. But just keeping all of this bottled up inside is a recipe for failure, I'm afraid. I wonder if it's possible the T you're seeing just isn't the right one for you?