Hi kaater! I can relate in a lot of ways because I too have chronic pain which has led to chronic depression and even two suicide attempts. My pain is not as bad as yours, but it is equally widespread. The last time they bothered to do MRI's (in 2008) they found herniated/bulging discs and/or other degenerative issues in 16 different places. I have taken every pill there is, constantly trying to find something that offers some relief. I'm so tired of being dizzy/drowsy/forgetful/muddled, etc. just from the meds!

For me, finding people to talk to who understand usually helps, since most people have NO CLUE what we are going through and how overwhelming and NEVERENDING both the pain and depression seem to be. Even family & friends (sometimes, ESPECIALLY family & friends) don't know how to help and get sick of hearing about it or try to force you to do things that they think should help, but don't. So, for me, sometimes it's just talking to someone who gets it and will just listen & empathize.

The other thing that helps me is when I'm able to feel useful in some way. It can take my mind off of it, even if it's just a little bit. Plus, if I feel like I can contribute something to the world in some way, it helps to alleviate the depression and hopelessness. When your life is pain and agony (physical & psychological), 24/7 with no end in sight or possibility of relief, every little bit helps.

Then again, I just joined today, and it happens to be the best day I've had all year. I'm not always this optimistic. Ask me tomorrow and I might say "nothing helps", because that's how I feel most of the time these days. That's why I joined! I need people who get it to talk to.

Anyway, hope this helps and good luck!!