I went to my Mom's house today and I actually had a good time but I didn't have a good time. It's really hard to explain. They did absolutely nothing wrong. Everyone who was there when I was, was very nice to me, happy to see me, complimenting me, giving me presents and I feel genuinely wanted me to stay longer.
But I as I drove home I felt the depression wash over me and it thickened when I got home. I keep crying and I don't even know why.
I feel so alone. I just feel alone. I want to get out of this place I live in, I want to move to where there are trees and grass. I want to have my own family. I want a best friend. Why am I such a terrible person-why else would I be so alone?
I feel like I'm suffocating. I feel like my heart is sinking .
What is wrong with me?