mandy thankyou for replying. yes there is hope, we both want to get our lives back together, she actually dropped a bombshell tonight and told me she was abused by one of her friends dads when she was 13. my jaw was on the floor, but still dont know why she didn't protect me when she knew this man was an abuser. i have protected my children and if anyone so much as touches them i will kill them i swear and always have done. we used to live next door to a flasher when i was 2/3 and she used to leave me with him and his daughter - go figure..........

love you, pm me anytime, you have been a great help to me

jinnyann xoxoxoxox