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Old Nov 13, 2014, 08:24 AM
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Originally Posted by IndestructibleGirl View Post
Giant (gentle & safe!) hugs, Sweepy. I know how hard some words can be to say in particular contexts. They literally scuttle away to the back of my throat and I can't cough them out at times. Definitely agree with writing them down as a first step.
Thx, the major hurdle would be saying them in session relating them to me, she says we need to work on this before we even start trauma therapy. I just feel those words are disgusting when the topic is me.

When I hear them on the news , or on a tv show, yes they tend to annoy me, but I cope. My friends talk about intimacy , it's fine, I either brush it off or pretend to listen to the conversation .

The problem comes when, it's associated with c s a and me, to say yes I was ( blank blank ) or the person touched here or there, that feels like somebody squishing me. That's just thinking about it. To say that to t to actually verbalize it, I have never said it .

I have written some words down , 3 of them with old t before she left, but I either wrot them with missing letters, or hangman style, and backwards.

She was not accepting them like that.
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