It's only my mom that really believes I'm really depressed.

I overheard my dad talking to my mom that I'm just making up 'excuses', I don't know what that even means. He said some really hurtful things about me being 'worthless' and 'incapable'. I can't blame him because I think I have everything to be 'not depressed', I'm a perfectly normal kid with a loving family.

I really don't have that many 'allies', I thought my dad knew me, he doesn't, and I feel like it's only my mother who understands me. I've always kept quiet, don't share much, and I think it leads people to think I'm fine. I've often reached out to my friends who're depressed too, I've learned a bit about depression over the years, I try to give them advice on how to cope with it, they say it helps and I comfort them, it means a lot.

But it's all 'Do as I say, not as I do', I'm only echoing what others have told me on how to deal with depression, and I'm glad I can be of some comfort to my friends.

What hurt me most is the fact that my dad, he could've said it to my face, why be nice to me, and speak differently of me when I'm not around? I've talked to my mom about my depression, and she has advised me to seek help and is supportive, but my dad on the other hand, thinks I'm 'weak'. Not even my dad understands me, so I don't expect else anyone to. I wish I could prove him wrong?