(((((Sweepy))))) I'm so sorry you have to go through this!!

My oldest was SI and threatening Sui, I got her in counseling and she finally opened up about 6 months in. She felt terrified to say it and couldn't tell me, or even be interviewed by the police, for a year and a half after the abuser was out of our lives.

She does trauma focused cognitive behavioral therapy and the first thing they do every.single.weekly.session is DD recites her narrative. The idea is to talk about it safely, and continue to talk about it so much that it loses the power to hurt you. It's working and she's made great strides, but this was not c s a that happened long ago, it was more recent, so maybe easier for her to confront now before it becomes deeply ingrained.

I really commend you for being ready to work on this. It's incredibly hard and I know you'd rather be hung up by your toenails. But look how far you've already come!

Now you can think the words. Even if you don't know how you will ever speak them, you know T will help you and continue to keep you grounded in a safe environment while you work this out.

Here's one more hug! I'm so proud of you.