Okay, so I have 2 part-time jobs and work 7 1/2 hours most days.
In the first job I work in a supermarket 5 – 9 am. Then I go to my 2nd job at a nursery in a non-teaching role.
I want to quit my supermarket job and only work at the nursery because:
1.) I’ve been feeling more socially isolated because I have to go bed so early to be up on time. I used to do volunteer work at night, but had to quit when I joined the supermarket. Sometimes I would see friends. Life is less enjoyable now.
2.) It’s a dead end job and I would like a more full-filling job.
3.) It’s almost Christmas and working Christmas in a shop is horrible.
4.) I’m only just accepting the fact that I probably have social anxiety. The job at the supermarket has little social interaction. But, really I feel that I’m trying to hide from the world. That’s not how I want to be.
5.) I’d have more opportunity to further my career in education.
6.) I would more time for hobbies.
7.) I’d have every weekend and regular holidays to recharge and feel safe at home.
The cons are:
1.) I earn my most money from the supermarket. Unless they give me more hours at the nursery (I think this is likely).
2.) My hours at the nursery are likely to change.
3.) My social anxiety will probably flare up given the high level of team work and communication required.
4.) To continue training I’d have to train and work in different nurseries and schools. I’m very settled at my current nursery.
5.) Change is scary and I’m going to have work hard to overcome my social awkwardness and anxiety. I also need to learn to cope under pressure. Yeah, it’s going to be tough trying to come out of my shell.
I’m scared because I have never felt completely settled in a job. My anxiety seems to tell me lies about what I’m actually suited to. I want a career. I want a challenge. I want to work hard and be proud of myself. But, my anxiety keeps telling me that I’m ugly and useless. At least in the supermarket I can hide away, people don’t expect much out of me and it’s a solid job with plenty of overtime. I’m worried that if I quit I will suddenly feel that I’ve made a big mistake and want hide back in the supermarket.
Any thoughts?