Of course being honestly and openly judged is something that happens from time to time in RL. It's not about confidence nor judginess/rejection (I experience rejection from time to time, different causes and context and it's normal, possible to put it on perspective and keep going), it's about getting back my ability to share my feelings and thoughts in an honest, but nice and comprehensive physical way. I want my physical body to help me in communicating such thing as I've a hard time expressing myself and developing my emotional intelligence. Said in other way, I just want to know better what and how I want it relating to physical/sexual issues, and my own body plays a role on it. I know, it may sound simple for many people, but for me it's not. I want to stop acting like a computer and I can imagine a relevant role on this.

edit: I may also add that the time I've kissed/had sex I didn't feel particularly high pleasure from it to the point I questioned myself of being asexual (Nope, I concluded I'm not) There may be other causes besides a lack of self-awareness but I want to give a try on this too.