Am I normal? I'm bipolar 1 or schizoaffective , i have had periods of being off meds in which I acted inappropriately. If I were to describe myself. I would say I am very small. But I can be prideful and know it all. I can hate this person . I can become self-deprecating . I hate my Pride, self-pity, anger and hatred. Maybe its normal to be so intense about yourself. I hear myself screaming at my dress as a young girl. (it got muddy)...there would be no love that day. Any day i screwed up. I was punished. I think the girl i see in my mind screaming is me when i would fail. I have to work on not punishing myself now. Am I normal?