I intentionally stayed in bed until almost 1pm so I wouldn't have to eat until dinner. What is wrong with me? I know that I need to eat for my new job to have the strength to move patients. I just can't bring myself to eat. I am so afraid of becoming fat that it consumes me like a fire. I wish I could eat like I am supposed to. I wish I had someone to call and talk to when I feel this way. Someone to tell me that it is ok to eat. Someone to talk sense to me.