Hi brokenentity, I'm really sorry you had to hear that...........and you maybe feel betrayed, rejected, let down by your dad alongside the hurt??
But this: "I can't blame him because I think I have everything to be 'not depressed', I'm a perfectly normal kid with a loving family"........you can have absolutely everything anyone could dream of and more but that doesn't make you immune from depression and everything that goes with it. It is not your fault the way you feel like you do
And you know none of it's excuses, you're not worthless, you're not incapable, right??!!! And it sounds like your mom does too, but regardless we know it.
Your dad..........well it sounds like he hasn't really gone through a learning process like you (or your mom?) have. There are so many misconceptions about what depression is/isn't and maybe he's fallen into some of those "traps"???
That's not to say that he can't learn some things about it though.........any chance you or your mom could explain a little more to him...........then if/when he's willing to understand...............???
And real kudos to you in the support you've given to your friends!!!
You're by no means on your own though with the "Do as I say, not as I do", you're going to get a lot of agreement with that
So now about getting some real support for you, hey??!! Do you think you could ask your mom to support you in getting some help?? As well as keeping talking to us!!

Alison