I wish I in a way could but I really can´t. I could never speak to my T again, she showed me such an unsympatetic attitude and for her it seemed like a termination was like waving off a fly. I´ve never felt more let down and pushed away and the situation came close to what I see must be childhood experiences.

I really don´t know what could make me feel better, crying don´t ease the feeling of being hurt and I know I will never get restitution in this matter. I could perhaps got to hear more of her so called "explanation" but I was so deeply hurt by her actions that I couldn´t go there.

It´s even more humiliating attending a meeting with a T that wasn´t offered from the beginning and then, as you feel hurt, let down, sad and so on you also put your self in a position to cry in front of the person who did all this to you. Who wants to go through this?

It´s of course ok to cry and mourn when you attend a proper and agreed upon termination and you could then feel a bit of consolation from your T during the termination process. But now, my T would in a way be my "enemy", the one who destroyed things, who let me down and who just walks on in her life.

I know she of course isn´t in such pain that I´m in and who wants to show your "enemy" your pain? Not me anyway.