I'm 19 and I've been really anxiety for about 4 years now. When I was 15 it was really bad for a while but it eventually eased up. It's been constant but not too life altering until recently. I've always had little heart palpitations since I've been dealing with anxiety. I have 'health anxiety' so it really messes me up. Recently in the last 2 or 3 months every couple of weeks I'll have really bad heart palpitations. My doctor when I was 16 or 17 basically laughed at me and told me to lose weight. I'm so afraid of doctors and I feel like I NEED to go just to make sure it's only anxiety and not some underlying illness.
Last night I was in bed listening to music when I had a really strong heart palpitation. I jumped up, instantly terrified and on the verge of tears. (This is embarrassing.) I ran to my mom's room and sat up in her bed all night. If I layed down I was afraid I would have another one. So I just sat up shaking, freaking out, tensed up, running to the bathroom, puking, etc. ALL NIGHT. I didn't sleep until 8 or 9 am when I basically was too tired to worry too badly. I made myself so sick. I do these things where I'll say if I tap on my leg (click something, rub something, whatever) a certain amount of times before a minute passes then I'm okay and I'm not going to die. My mom says I'm crazy and need to be put on medicine. The last time I was on medicine it really sped up my heart and I had the worst anxiety attacks I've ever dealt with. I'm just so shaky and I can't stop worrying about my heart. 24/7 I'm freaking out. I don't know what to do. I can't feel like this anymore. I just want to be calm and not so afraid that I'm dying every single day. I'm so scared.