Hello,i',m in a situation all over the last 8-10 years i am struggling to control my emotions,i just can't make it work for me.

Insecurites,fears of failure,isolation,depression,low self esteem,lack of confidence,lack of motivation and interestings,lost point of my life,i don't have friends,i coudn't keep old friendships back from school years,i am trying hard to have a positive attitude and image to other ppl just to sympathize me,i can't control my thoughts,to trust my own self,believe in me and move on,learn from old wrong decisions i did somedays back.

I really sometimes feel so useless that other people in mine age they have lived and had much more life experiences than me,in job,in relationships,how to have fun etc.

Its time to act and take responsibilities of my own life before its too late,i have already lost many years and time of fighting with all these emotions,my fears i will fail in everything i'll try to do,almost scared to take a car and drive,meet a girl and talk without looking down the ground or look shy or have anxiety etc.

I don't know what is your view of things as you read above but i am really feeling weird,uncomfortable with my self ,with others around me,don't want talking much for me cause feeling ashamed for many things of my life.