I have often wished I could get on enough medication so that I would just not feel anything... or maybe not THINK anything. I'm so tired of the fight. I have struggled all my life with depression, anxiety & gender identity disorder. It all goes back so far I don't know what caused what.

One thing I do know though is that the cure for gender identity disorder is something I can never do. So I know I will continue to struggle for the rest of my life. And sometimes I think I just can't stand it for another minute.

I can't tell you what the point of living is if you can't feel anything. But sometimes I ask myself what the point of living is when every day is just another helping of distress...