I've been in therapy for a while, and I really trusted my therapist a lot. I have never trusted a therapist and I'm not very good at trusting anybody or anything , anyway.

So the fact that he got my trust was a pretty big deal!

Well, lately I don't know what his problem has been, but he changed how he interacted with me, and it freaked me out.

I tried to tell him but he just kept pounding away at how I need to change this, that, the other thing - the way I breathe and the way my heart beats, I think!

Finally today, he said something which didn't just hurt me - it really upset me and I told him basically where to go - that he was making me worse, not better, and I told him a number of other things.

He thought I was going to commit suicide, I guess. I wasn't except I have had those issues - but not today.

However, he did this in a text to me! And he did it when I was at work.

So later, he wanted to talk to me - and I did talk with him. He wanted to point out all my defects and everything I needed to change.

And I let him have it! I had tried and tried to tell him he was upsetting me by changing how he was with me, and damaging my trust - and finally he does this by text and does it in the middle of my work!

I really told him not only how I felt, but that I will have to think about whether I am going back or not. He said he was sorry and wanted to know if that restored my trust?

And I told him, no, that has to be restored in time, if it is at all.

So I am contemplating now whether or not to go back. Not only that, after this happened, my head is pounding so bad its coming off my shoulders - and I have very high BP that I fight all the time with two meds.

Therapists don't have any right to push too far. If their clients tell them they need a break, or they feel too overwhelmed, therapist should listen.

I'm mad - my status says irritated but I'm mad. Officially.

The only reason I might go back, is that it went so well before. But I don't know now......I don't know if its salvageable or not.