All of the negatives to me just seem to far much out balance any positives to me. I've been thinking if it's really worth living on like this any longer. I can't help but think that I've been thinking more and more of suicide lately. My sense of value for my own health and life is literally next to none as well. I don't like asking for help or letting others know what I'm going through. In fact, I absolutely hate it. I'm a person who keeps everything to myself and I can't change who I am...I'm sure a lot of people here understand.