I wish I had someone to talk to in person about my suicidal ideation. It scares me sometimes, because although it's only hypothetical most days, sometimes the fantasy becomes too close to reality.
It's easy to fantasize about things I could actually do, and that scares me. I want to talk to someone about it without fearing that they'll freak out and institutionalize me or ask me to take meds. All I need is to vent, but there's no way I can tell anyone I know about this.
I'd also like to talk to someone else who does this.