lol this is what my girl friend told me to do. She's like "dude it's not that hard... call again!" "it's not rocket science". For me, asking for help is VERY hard. Even to call a therapist to begin therapy is hard for me. I have a lot of shame in asking for help. and I try very hard to get on along without therapy and without medication and i've had issues since age 12... I don't think most people in my situation would have coped like I have without help.

So, for me calling to ask for help. I have so much anxiety even leaving her a voicemail- I called 12x and hung up before I finally was able to leave her a voicemail. When I did, and she doesn't call back, then I don't feel validated and don't want to try again. Iknow that sounds dramatic but that's how I feel.