I'm really looking for some help on this, from as many people as possible.

Okay. I left therapy to take a break. Heavy transference with my therapist, insurance issues, work life, everyday life and the general issues I am dealing with in therapy - they converged to be too much for me and I needed a break. So, I couldn't quit work and I couldn't quit everyday life - so the only thing I could take a break from was therapy.

I think I'm ready to go back (because I miss my therapist and because a gut feeling in me says I need to keep on trying)

Trouble is, as I look at my general life and what appears to me as my snail's pace ability to change, I have begun to think: "What is the point? I can't change and I'm sick of wasting everyone's time."

So, I don't want to return to therapy and be useless to my therapist with a "what-is-the-point-attitude".

This is the best relationship I've had with a therapist, so I don't think I need to find a new therapist (unless she is sick of me...but that is another issue and mainly lays in the fact I think I am poision in general and no one can stand me for so long.)

So, has anyone ever lost their motivation?

How do you get it back?

Thank you for any little bit of help.