It's okay to talk about how you feel with your therapist and your spouse. Speaking of "big exit" my homework this week is providing proof or lack of proof that treated bipolars have a much shorter life span. I am also looking into whether bp2 gets worse or better with age for those treated.

Back on topic, I talk about suicide with my therapist but I don't feel comfortable discussing these issue with other people as I don't want people looking at me or treating me differently. If " by dragged anywhere" you mean thrown in a mental hospital, it is very hard to admit someone unwilling to be admitted. I wish I knew that when my therapist threatened to put me in one last year!