I don't know if a hug would be a good thing for you just now - if so, here is a virtual one

If not, please just ignore that and substitute something else which works better for you - a hand to hold, a comforting voice, whatever.

I'm so sorry you are having to go through this - is there someone you can talk to about it when you're ready? Anyone available to take care of you for a while?

For now, I hope you have a warm, cosy place to be and something soothing at hand. I find breathing exercises helpful, don't know if you do?

If you need to keep writing on here, that's fine - we will listen to you.

Bluegrey