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Originally Posted by geis
If I could just decide not to let it bother me, don't you think I would? The nature of PTSD and dissociative disorders is such that you can't just choose not to be triggered. I need to be able to process the triggers and the trauma behind them, but I don't have access to therapy and am limited in how much I can process on my own, especially given that I'm in a constant state of being triggered right now.
I also don't have the ability to just get away when she goes off. I don't have a car, and I have a physical disability that makes it hard for me to walk. I'm in the process of applying for paratransit, but even once that gets approved, trips have to be booked 24 hours in advance, so that's not a way I could get away when she goes off.
My landlady is the one who suggested the meeting, so clearly she thinks it could be beneficial. I think my roommate needs to have some things explained to her, particularly about the limitations my disability puts on me and how I still deserve to be treated with the same respect as a non-disabled person, and I think some differing expectations need to be reconciled. My landlady thinks that communication is the only way this is going to improve. I tend to agree, but I know it's not going to be beneficial if I can't find a way not to switch. I'm looking for feedback specifically around that, not on the overall situation.
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Sorry I misunderstood what you were asking. I would suggest that you bring someone you trust to the meeting. First thing it will be calming and you will not be alone. Second you will have someone there who will hear everything that is said and be able to tell you about the meeting if you lose time. The reality is that you will most likely need to find other housing where you do not have to be fearful and be triggered. The passive aggressive roommate will most likely not change their behavior because they know it upsets you and still they behave that way. It is part of their mental health issue. You don't need to be in that situation. Start looking for other housing. You will find it and you will feel better for it. Take care and I hope everything works out.