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Originally Posted by Turtlesoup
I'm sorry you're having such a rough time-I can relate to so many things in your post-it's like you peeked inside my head  When I was younger I tried to be the perfect daughter, didn't bug my parents, never went to them when I had problems & always tried to act like everything was OK. My Dad does not "believe in" mental illness & has never been supportive of me either through times of struggle or when I'm doing well. It really sucks when your parent does not support or believe in you-I still shudder when I remember a few years ago when my Dad yelled at me that I was a coward over & over-bleh. Having depression or any other mental illness is no different than if you were born a diabetic with a faulty pancreas or a weak heart valve-it is not something you choose but it is something that you can work on. Please remember that you are not alone & try to reach out to others & share when you're struggling-those friends that you have given support to will almost surely reciprocate what you have given to them. Hopefully someday your Dad will understand & support you but for now realize that you can't control his behavior but you can surround yourself with positive people that have your best interest at heart.
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I just need more time, I can prove to people that I can take care of myself. Being depressed is pretty bad, but it hasn't stopped me from functioning so far. I've always tried to put the happiness of my parents over my happiness, but sometimes I wish I could just focus on my own goals in life.