Thank you all for your replies. My friends are concerned, because I seem off and keep zoning out on them. I work on a rescue truck, and they felt like I couldn't do it, because of my mental condition.. So, last night was a bit of a wake-up call for me. I have to do something about the medication. I can't just be numb and zone out AND do what I enjoy (working on the rescue truck). I'm not willing to compromise my safety and the safety of the patients and - most of all - my friends. If something happened to them, I'd never forgive myself. These guys are like brothers to me; I love them dearly. So, today, I'm calling in to talk about my medication. Sadly, numbness was my goal. Now that I'm here, I don't want it, anymore. So, I'm so lost, now... What happens when you reach your goal and decide that you no longer want it?