Dear Lucami, I feel sad for you. It must be quite difficult to have a challenge like that (panic attacks) and then no support from the family around you. It certainly makes the situation unbearable. What I suggest is that you should speak to your mother once both of you are in normal moods. You need support to get through this and your mother may be able to help you out. If there are other family members, you can seek their support too. What is important here is that they realise what is happening to you and what exactly is your mental state during the panic attack. You can explain it to them how horrible it feels and what kind of assistance you require from them. Also it can be used as a bonding opportunity to strengthen your relation with your mother/family members. You should also analyse their situation and the challenges they face, you can try to accommodate their problems as well when you are feeling better and stronger. In this way, both you and your family can benefit from each other. I wish you all the best!