Hi SilentNinjaReader... I didn't see your post earlier. I just wanted to say... how awesome that you were able to open up to your T, to be honest and vulnerable and share your experiences. I struggle alot with that... so I very much admire and respect that you were able to do it (and I understand how awful and difficult it can feel).

It sounds like your T reacted well... was supportive, and didn't judge you? That's so good to hear.

And, like ScarletPimpernel said... I get a little more comfortable (a little more "safe") with each session with my T. It's been a slow process, but I am trying to decide to trust him, even when it feels impossible. I tell him a little more each week, but some has been in writing only, because that's where I'm at right now. I'm ok with slow though, I think slow (and safe!) is just 100% fine... I'd rather go slow and careful, and not get too overwhelmed!

Good luck with your therapy, I hope you feel more connection and safety with your T each week and that you're able to get what you need from this T!