I have a lease, so I can't just leave. There are also major financial issues that make moving impossible. (I'm getting this apartment under market value, and it took me nearly six months just to find this place.) I'm on the waiting list for section 8 and public housing, but it could be five years or longer, especially since I need a handicap accessible apartment.

At this point I'm feeling really hopeless, like suicide is my only way out. I don't really want that, but my whole life feels impossible and now I can't even feel safe at home.