My clever insurance and T have found away for me to attend DBT group for about 3 months. I'm terrified!

My Pdoc goes on maternity leave at the end of Feb for 3 months. So...while she's on leave I will go be a patient with the county so I can have access to their groups.

I don't want to go! But I have to I know DBT will be helpful, but I don't want to be in a group. I hate groups. And I hate county. It is suck a rundown scary place. Most of their clients scare me. Most of the employees are interns. More than likely I will be judged for having BPD. And I don't feel safe with men.

I am panicking. I know I don't have to stay if I don't want to. But if I don't try, then I feel like I'm not putting in enough effort to better myself. I don't want to frustrate or disappoint anyone.

I'm so scared.

Any advice? Or positive experiences?